Saturday 19^th May

So what am I going to do about this song that everyone thinks I wrote??? Today, Steph asked if I'd written another one, I said I hadn't as the inspiration hadn't struck, but she just said I should close my eyes and perhaps something amazing would happen .... but it won't because I'm not a songwriter, I'm a liar..... a no good liar and I am a bad person. I feel so totally bad that all I wanted to do this afternoon was curl up on my bed and work out what to do next ... but I couldn't because we had a street dance rehearsal .....

But the rehearsal went really well, and I forgot about my worries for a whole 2 hours!! Afterward I pretended I had a headache whilst everyone else went to Loca Mocha... I couldn't sit and speak to them ... actually I didn't have to pretend much, all this feeling guilty really did give me a headache, and Abbie even walked me home, she's just so sweet and lovely and she doesn't even know that her friend is a big fat liar (who didn't know she was lying at the time, but whatever.....) ...... I'm not going to sleep tonight, I just know I'm not!!