Wednesday 20^th June

Well today didn't go according to plan at all .... in fact I wish that the floor could just open up and hide me away from everyone......I'm sooooooooooo embarrassed I could die!!! I really thought I would be Eliza Doolittle, I was soooo confident and sure that it would be me that I told everyone this morning that I'd already been told it was me ...... it was only a little bit of a fib, I was so sure it would be me .... but then when the list went up at lunchtime I could hear everyone whispering and when I went to the board just to see what they were all pointing at .... it wasn't my name next to the part of Eliza ..... it was Abbie's.....

I wanted to cry, but I couldn't cry in front of everyone!! I looked down the list, and I've got the part of flower girl number 4 .... I don't even think I have any lines!!!! I was totally shocked, so I just said "That's right .... I've stepped down this time .... I decided that it wasn't fair to take all the best roles and as Abbie is sooooo totally amazing I suggested that she'd be perfect for the part!!!" but inside I knew I was fibbing and I felt as if my heart was being ripped apart ..... sob ...... WHY!!!!!!